If it happens the sun is shining bright

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 18:00:45 GMT

So, winter break has been perf. Here are some pics of some happenin kids.

Holy Cannoli.

Sun, 27 Nov 2005 23:43:01 GMT

Okay everyone's doing it, and I want to do it too:

Let's talk about RENT.

I went to see it twice over thanksgiving break, once with my little brother and Alyssa and her little brother, and a second time with Bruce and Astrid. Cried ridiculously both times. From "Another Day" to the end of the movie, I cried. So I mean it was definately good, but of course I'm gonna be picky.

I've seen it twice onstage so I mean. If you haven't seen it live...like you just haven't lived. And it just doesn't compare to the amazing experience that is RENT. Regardless I think people should definately go see the movie because RENT is about life and how you should measure it in love. And I am sick of salisbury where people went "EW" went Collins and Angel kissed. I mean. Geezus Christ on a Cross at Calvary. Don't go to see RENT if you cannot handle gay people. Anyway.

RENT is awesome, but they really left out a lot of stuff that defines Mark, who is my favorite character. =( no "Halloween" or "Goodbye Love" or anything. Poo.

Anyway. Good times. If any of you guys went to see it, props to you, that makes me happy. I hope that lots of people go see it and enjoy themselves.

It was sad that I knew all the people at the first showing in Salisbury Maryland at 10:05 in the morning on Wednesday the 23rd. True RENTheads were rampant and we screamed and carried on and had a good time. =D

for Patrick

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 22:12:27 GMT

Okay, so this entry is basically for Patrick of the Towson Campus Greens because I heart him and I wish for him to stalk me and heart me too. haha.

Basically I have an audition in about a half hour for the mainstage shows at Towson next semester and I'm pretty scared. I would also like to shout out to my loves from The Bury, I miss all of you guys and I can't wait to see you again. At some point. I dyed my hair black. I protested with the Baltimore Animal Rights Coalition. I performed in a drag show as a drag king. I went to "SAW II" the other night and I did not have a Matt Griffin to squeeze the hell out of so it was a different but basically equally frightening and upsetting movie, minus the Shawn reality-checks. I saw The Rocky Horror Show live and loved it. LOVED IT. The put the "V" on my head in red lipstick. I was in a directing scene all about sex. The theatre department plays this really fun game called "Big Booty" that I taught to my hallmates and it's fun. Chris Rudy rhymes with Big Booty, so sometimes we replace Big Booty with the name of my friend Chris Rudy and it sounds the same. Basically. I miss everyone. I hope college (or high school!) Is treating everyone well. Much love and peace.

This weekend: Concert at Sonar. Who is playing?

Dredg, The Blood Brothers, Me Without You and Coheed and Cambria.

It is going to be the shit.

Also this week: Victoria's Dirty Secret. We are fighting to save the Boreal forests from being cut down for Victoria's Secret Catalogs. I know. Pretty ridiculous.

Look what I have found
A seashell in a sea of shells
I'm gonna plant in my own seed
To sprout an endless hell.

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 22:31:14 GMT

Okay. So My Chemical Romance was totally awesome. Good show. I was doing a search of them randomly, I found them on peta2 talking about animal rights. They have a video. Here it is.

http://www.peta2.com/OUTTHERE/o-mcr.asp

PS sorry that I don't really get on LJ anymore to post or whatev. I still love everyone though.

Peace Rally

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 06:26:25 GMT

Isn't everybody tired of the fighting?
Isn't everybody tired of the killing?
Isn't everybody tired of the dying?
Isn't everybody tired of the hatred?

On Saturday, September 24th 2005, 300,000 people got together to protest the war in Iraq.

300,000 people.

Holler Back Youngins.

I journeyed to DC on a bus with the Towson Campus Greens. We are all actually becoming friends...and I'm really loving it. Really, I am. They just all impress me so much, because they are all so strong in their beliefs and so true to themselves, and so powerful as people. I love them. It was Mike (the Coordinator, since we are Greens we don't really do 'president') Paul, April and me. Paul is so sweet, and April is my new favorite chick, and Mike is just a great person. He'd climb on top of whatever he could to take pictures. Him and Paul were so funny too. And a professor from our campus named Jeff walked around with us too. It was awesome. When we marched by some pro-lifers (um...this is a war protest...we're not even talking about abortion...) Mike screamed,

"WHERE ARE YOUR UTERUS???...ES!!!" And it made me laugh. Because it really was a whole bunch of men in a line telling women what to do with their bodies. It made me even more proud to be with the Green Party.

This is not a war
of the urging people
This is not a war
of economic independance
It's a war for conquest
It's a war for military power
It's a war for money
The road to universal slaughter

Sons and daughters of a dream
The urge to struggle for an ideal
To stay and fight
Oppose war fever
Refuse to kill or be killed

I saw my brother, Liam. What a guy. Him and his friend Mac from college park came, which was just so awesome. I got to march with them. I mean it was crazy. I got to march with Peter from The Bury too. What a guy. Walking beside him, he said, "I am so happy to be marching for peace with such a beautiful person." And I just hugged him right amidst everything. I saw Kathleen from The Bury too. It was great. And then of course Astrid and Justin, the very cute couple of The Bury. I so love Astrid. We had a lot of time to sit and talk and be together that day too. We got lost in an elevator (for real) and joked about vag and peen for a long time. It was so great. Towson kids who I also saw were Hippie Tom! I totally got to march with him, it was awesome. Russell was there, and my new super cute friend Dan was there. How flippin sweet. I loved it.

So all in all, I marched with Mike, April, Paul, Jeff, Liam, Mac, Peter, Astrid, Justin, Kathleen, and well I glimpsed Russell and Dan before they were lost in the abyss. There were great signs, great people, lots of hugs, love and joy. It really is a joyful occaison. A celebration, uniting for peace. Awesomeness.

My favorite is the line of Conservative/Republican pro-war people. Okay. I just don't get it. Why are you gonna protest a PEACE gathering?? PEACE. I mean I don't understand. They're standing there telling us we don't support our troops.

We do support our troops. We want them to COME HOME. We don't want them TO DIE. That's how much we support them, you effing fascists. I mean what the fuck. Mike decided that his favorite thing to say now was "I love freedom more than you do. What a zinger, you know? They really can't say anything to me once I say that. That is like, shazam."

Anyway, of course we chanted at them...

"RACISTS GO HOME!!!" Yes, because the war is fucking racist.

1, 2, 3, 4.
We don't want your racist war.
5, 6, 7, 8.
Organize and smash the state.

And then we started clapping and chanting "SIGN UP, SIGN UP, SIGN UP!!"
Because, for real? These people are all about supporting a war...supporting death and MURDER and destruction of real living, breathing HUMAN BEINGS with lives and tangible presence...and they are supporting the useless slaughter of thousands. "We" feel that if they support that so much, there is no reason why they are not over there doing the killing. Yeah. Go to Iraq and kill. Or get killed.

I don't wanna die.
(I don't wanna kill)
I don't wanna kill.
(I don't wanna die)
We are all human...it's time to prove it.

One of the Conservatives had a sign that said "Hippies stink and need to shower!!" And this really offended my poor Hippie Tom. He was screaming, "I FUCKING SHOWER EVERY DAY YOU FASCIST!!!" And another one had a sign that fucking said, "I EAT HIPPIES." Tom and I just looked at each other, wide eyed.

No wonder you're pro-war you psycho. What kind of fucking 'God Fearing' 'Patriotic' bullshit loser waves a sign that talks about eating other people? Oh my god. Definately creepy. Anyway they called us Fags and Dykes and all that. haha. Whatever. Homophobe shit.

You wave your flag,
Tell me I'm free.
Then use the word "fag"
To fuck with me.

Anyway. The concert afterwards was fun.

One people, one struggle. Stay united, stay peaceful.

And I called Kate. And found her. We totally raped each other right on the pavement near the monument. It was SO awesome. I was so excited to see her! I hadn't seen her in forever. And we were on the phone, trying to like 'feel each other out' and it was super confusing. Like

"Um...there's a Palestine booth. Do you see it?"
"No."
"There's a Military Recruitment Banner thing."
"Oh yeah I see that."
"Where are you?"
"On the pavement."
"Are you really?"
"Yeah...am I walking towards you?"
"What?"

*HUGE DRAMATIC PAUSE*

"OH SHIT!!!" And then it was glomp attack time. I think we screamed and squealed for like two minutes straight. Anyway, saw her and her GF Annalisa as well as my baby Jonathon. It was soooooo wonderful. I love my liberal dears. LOVE THEM.

Astrid and Justin helped me find my way back to the metro to get home. All in all? A wonderful day of spreading peace, love, and happiness. Thank you to all of those who came out. We are making a difference. And we WILL save lives.

We are not countries. We are not nations. We are not religions.
We are not gods. We are not weapons. We are not ammunition. We are not killers.
We will NOT be tools.

I will not die
I will not kill
I will not be your slave
I will not fight your battle
I will not die on your battlefield
I will not fight for your wealth
I am not a fighter
I am a human being!!!

Vee 101

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 04:34:21 GMT

The Life of The Vee At College:

Is pretty much super busy. My classes are beginning to require a lot of me. Spending more time in the library because it's easier for me to stay focused there. I'm in a show that Ryan is directing, it's called "Songs for a New World" and it is wonderful! I'm pretty excited about it, and we're getting into rehearsals tomorrow too. I just feel tired all the time. I'm studying yoga and pilates though, which is awesome. As for clubs, I am involved in:

Campus Greens
Students for Environmental Awareness
Queer Student Union
University Residence Government
Freespace Theatre

And it's really a shitload of groups but somehow, here I am, committed to all of them. As for friends, however, I'm making them. They're wonderful people. People who say that Towson is a shitty school or that it's a party school can shut up, because I've met some wonderful people here and my professors are the shit. I just wish the roommate issues weren't like looming over me...I suppose I'll explain more on that later. Megs took some really cute pictures of some of our new college friends, and I would be cool and load them if I wasn't so lazy. And tired. Anyway there is Hippie Guy Tom who is one of my favorites, we spend many a late-night sitting under a tree talking about vegetarianism, theatre and lots of other stuff. Brienne is the cutie from the towers who also revels in liberalness and I really wish that she could be my new roommate. Christine is very fun as well and has been my QSU buddy and we've had some good times watching movies and walking around campus. I met Guiseppe and Hussein, some of my favorite international students, when I was with her. Guiseppe, affectionately labeled "Joe" to the average american, is Italian and very adorable. Hussein is Saudi Arabian and has the best manners of any guy ever. The Green Party kids are awesome, of course I'd think so. There is April and Mike who I've mainly discovered, and they are SO SMART and so cute. Mike kinda reminds me a lot of my brother Liam.

Anyway it's been good times. I really miss The Bury though. Well, the people at least. NERDS: How are you guys??? Wow I wish I could see you all. Zane, I hope you had a wonderful birthday. I didn't forget that you turned 18 a few days ago. I've just been a bad friend, which is why I didn't call you. :(

I also hope that the "Footloose" cast is doing well, I'm starting to fear that "Songs for a New World" might overlap. Sigh. I love all The Salisburians though, and I hope that you guys are doing well.

Thu, 01 Sep 2005 02:35:09 GMT

Hey pretty ones. I am officially in college now. Doing my thing.

I lurve it here, for one thing. I've made a bunch of new friends. Today I called my new friend Gabe to wake him up and drag him to class with my friend Lexi and me. I met a gorgeous Greek girl named Bella, and a spunky fun chick named Kimmie. Then there's a boy with a sweet face named Chris, a totally social dear named Alissa, and a dynamic super hot duo--Sara and Ryan. These are all just theatre majors, btw. So that's just the beginning. I'm actually meeting a friend from facebook tomorrow! Which will be really exciting. Cause I actually want to be friends with people on facebook. Anyway. Lots of new faces, lots of fun times. In acting I for majors today, we all held hands and walked in circles so that we were so tangled with each other. Then, without speaking, and still holding hands, we had to untangle ourselves. It was amazing. Such connections. I loved it. I felt at home again, like I belonged again. It's so hard to feel like that. That's why I have to be a theatre major. That's why I have to be here, with these people, learning what they're learning, and being a part of them.

PS-There are old friends from MSCA here too. Megs of course, which is so fun because we hadn't really gotten to talk much and yadda yadda and we're calling this our 'new start' because we're "college girls" now who have a totally new outlook and things are going really well. Just today, Megan was my knight in shining armor. She came and rescued me because I was wearing ridiculous shoes that totally cut up my foot. I mean I felt like crying. But she came and cleaned my toe and bandaged it. It was super sweet. I love you Megs. <3 Bart is here too, which is amazing. I haven't seen him for two years, and we click and get along just like we never stopped. We never really did STOP though, because we have written letters for all this time. Even if it would take a number of months, Bart would always, ALWAYS return a letter that is beautifully sealed and detailed, even the envelope looks gorge. Anyway, he walks me back to my dorm everynight so I don't get killed by all the guys here who want me so bad. (Just kidding. Really.) We talk about the same fun stuff, and totally crack up about everything.

When trying to say "Back, Witch!!!" It is important not to mess it up and say, "Wack, Bitch!!!" hahaha.

I miss everyone at home though. I hope you guys are well. Please know that I love you.

PS--Who put the XXX as a comment in the nerd ode? Was it Zane? I mean holler for straight edge. But yeah. That was pretty random dude.

Ode to Nerdage

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 09:10:07 GMT

To my nerds...

I just wanted to say that I lurve you guys. I'm gonna miss you so much. You all have been really, really wonderful people. I am like so lucky to know all of you and I feel happy and proud because of it. You guys are clean, smart, funny, and you have some of the biggest hearts I know of. I know that it's only leaving for a little while, but...still. I will really, really miss you.

Shaina--We're BFFs. haha. It's so weird leaving. And being far away for so long. Although not really that long. We'll see each other again soon. Really soon. And until then, I will still miss you oh so much...but we will write letters and be happy and keep in touch. Just remember all of our fun times and talks and rock shows and boyfriends and anime crushes and then movie star crushes as we 'advanced' in our teenage frivilosity, and our way of getting each others' jokes and laughing and loving to laugh. I will really, truly miss you my dear. So much. hugs and love. <3

Shawn--My rollercoaster buddy, and JSA love, and political talker, and basically all time hard core rocker. (ahahaha). We are able to talk about so much and it's always been really cool to hear your side and still (pretty much) understand each other and learn. You are my favorite conservative. haha. Really though, you are. You always roll with my really lameo jokes and it's so much fun. I'm gonna miss you. "I'm a republican, not a farmer."

Toph--I didn't even know that you hated me THAT much back in the day. hahaha. I was truly pretty apathetic towards you. I mean I didn't know you and I was kinda not caring. I had forgotten all about that day in chem. I kinda put it away in my head. But well. That was probably my roughest year in high school. And look at me now I'm so much better!! (haha joke.) Anyway. So I mean you pretty much act like you still hate me most of the time, haha, but you actually gave me a hug yesterday which was perf. And I know that you are a truly caring person, and I'm glad that we've gotten to know each other a lot better than our 'early years' of schooling. You even drove me from Jaime's to my house to get my vid cam. It wasn't there. But it was sweet of you to drive me. It's true that we've never really much had 'one on one' time to talk, but you're also right that we will. Especially since you love me soooooo much right?? heh. But for real? Thanks for being a supportive friend and ally this year, and always being around to joke and well...take your head out of pictures. Which I swear pisses me off to know end, you effing dick. Oh and the Figaro thing was at your grad party after we ran through the sprinklers, and I made you play that stupid soda can game with the ABCs. I'm glad you like your nickname. I do too =D

Zane--Dude I feel like a know you a bajillion times better after just this week!! We've actually talked a lot and it made me really, really happy. I love you Zaner Baners. You are a smart mother honker with a really wonderful heart. I can't wait to see what the world holds for you my friend. And I really hope that we are friends for a long time. You are my photogenic little model and I love it. Someday when I actually build my portfolio, I wanna use pictures of you in the graveyard. Cause it'll be hot. I feel that you're really flowing with jokes and it is hyster. I can't stop the abbreves. Anyhow. I'm gonna miss you but we will rock out on webcam and facebook so I am really glad for that. And I'm tell you, there is gonna be one girl who is really lucky to have you someday, for real.

Jaime--You are one of the sweetest and cutest people I know. Your mannerisms are precious. Even if a little bit creepy, just a little. Like the penis thing. But you're so cute, all the time. I just wanna take you from Kelsey and hug you all day long. I love you, I wish we've had more time together as well. But sometime right! I mean we'll be friends for awhile I feel. And we also listen to like the same music. Which is also perf. I can't wait for your party in 'the winter' haha. And you are basically so hot. I'm gonna miss you, but I'll also look forward to seeing you again soon...and...fluffy penguin penises. And you know. Dusting dicks and such. oh geez. You trip me up so much. I love you Jaime.

Kels--You're going away too, you ho. So I'm gonna see you one way or another. Transit myself over to you. Or something. You know. It won't be hard. You'll do great in college. And if your roomie really is gay, I want to meet him and become his new best friend. If that's okay with you. haha. So I mean, you make me laugh. One of the best times was when I was kinda going on and on giggling about something and you look at me and go "Stop talking." And...it was just so funny. But mean. But funny. But I'll see you soon. And I'll miss you Kelsey!! But see you soon. So it's all okay. Much love.

Matthew--You have always been uber-ly sweet to me. I think you are one of the most 'subtley' kind kids I know. Like the time at the mall where I dropped a milkshake and I was like...ahh I can't just leave it out here to pollute the earth and you picked it up and kind of 'flew' to the trash can to get it. It was so funny. We also got to talk a lot on our 'buddy' adventures at Six Flags. I told you some fucked up story about a really ugly sea creature (I forget what it was...what was it?) That turned into a faerie and made the seasons or some shit like that. And you humored me. And then we talked about the land of HUP! And like. The HUP! thing that you do is my fav. I'm gonna miss that. I wish I got to see it again before I left. But that just means that when I come back? It's HUP! time for you, Sir.

And finally, Amy. I know I don't have to pretend that I pretty much know you the least. haha. It's true. But I still think you're a very sweet girl and really super cute, too. REALLY. The most time we had to talk, I feel, was at Toph's grad party which was really perf because I feel we learned a lot more about each other. We obviously don't have much in common, but then again, we do because there are a lot of things we could talk about and come to understand. I wish you the best of luck in college, and I know that you will do great things in your life. =D Take care, cutie.

And then there are the 'psuedo-nerds' like Fishy and Diego who are basically hanging-outers on occaison, but mostly a bit too cool for us. haha. Fishy? You know I think you're perf. Actually 10th grade I really admired you a lot, that was when we actually started talking to me and I think you were less afraid that I would whip out butcher knives and start unleashing massive armies of egrets to feast upon your flesh. And I mean. That never happened, so. I hope that you have a really good time in college, I just want you to behave a bit. Just a bit. But stay as free-spirited as I have known you to be. And remember that people really do think fondly of you. Or well. At least I do. =) Diego, you punk, you just got to 12th grade anyway, so I mean. Oh well though. You know I'm gonna miss you and your awesomeness A LOT. A lot. You were my liberal ally. You always knew how to cheer me up and make me smile. Thank you for your endless support, your wonderful sense of humor and your overall kindness that has meant so much to me. The world is lucky to have you in it. And I'm lucky to know you. Thank you so much Diego, for being my friend.

And well, that is all, I feel. I will miss you guys so much. But now I must sleep before I go.

Siobhan
Who shall be called "Vee" by all of her new college friends because Siobhan is obviously too much for the world to handle right now...

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 02:01:38 GMT

Hey guys. I'm feeling better, no worries, heh.

School is starting soon, mad soon. Mad crazy soon. It's crazy. I mean really crazy. I haven't been packing at all and I'm pretty much not going to until I basically have to. I spoke with my roomie, and she seems pretty cool. I feel that I really hope we get along. I guess there are worse things if we don't, but still? I feel it would be cool if we did.

I've been working all the time and trying to meet up with my lovers from the Bury before I head out. I will miss everyone mucho. That is all for now, and now I have a pretty picture of my new puppy, Mr. Darcey.

Sigh. What a cutie.

Also, thank you everyone for all the seizurely love. hahah. I mean it. You guys rawk.

This is the life, Bo Bo Bo Bo.
Bohemia.

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 17:20:30 GMT

So, I went to the hospital again yesterday.

I mean I was at work, lalala, folding clothes, taking them out to the floor, doing my thing. The next thing I know, I'm laying on the ground, and maybe five strangers in blue are leaning over me, asking me what my name is and how old I am. I felt so, so scared...and I couldn't tell them. I honestly didn't know my name, I didn't know why these people were houvering around me. I tried to inch away from them, but I felt as though my body was paralyzed, held down by this incredible weight. They started calling me Siobhan, and I began to cry. "Whose Siobhan???" I asked them, tasting blood in my mouth, and I felt them hoist me unto a stretcher.

That's when I FREAKED OUT. I was screaming and kicking and sobbing. I mean I had no idea who these people were. "It's a dream" I thought, "It's all a dream and I'm going to wake up and be alright again." They carried me out of--out of the bookstore, and the first person I recognized was Jess. A girl I work with. Her face looked crestfallen as she watched them haul me away. They raised me unto another platform, and before we took off again, an older man got in the back. I looked at him, screaming and crying, and then, finally, I realized that it was my dad. My dad was there, I should be at work, I'm supposed to raise money for college..."NO!!!" Was all I could scream out. I wailed like a banshee. They had to take me back they had to take me back. When we stopped moving, doors opened, I recognized the Salisbury Hospital. The hospital, which meant I had been taken away from the stretcher to an ambulance to the hospital.

I wailed and bawled and wailed as some nurses put all kinds of stickers on me guiding where I would be plugged into places. A nurse yelled and screamed at me to calm down, but I wouldn't. I couldn't calm down. I could sense fire again. I had to get away from the fire, and no one could understand me, no one could make out my reason for crying. "It's alright, it'll be alright." My dad said from across the room.

The rest is a blur of doctors and doctors with hospital bands and needles upon needles. So many needles. Shooting stuff up my arms through my vains. I cried and cried and cried until my eyes were almost swollen shut. They told me then that I had had a seizure at work. I was foaming at the mouth, they said, I bit my tongue which made me bleed, and I fell to the ground because I was shaking so violently. Liam came to visit to tell me that everyone was worried. I passed out again before they finally let me go home, saying it was a medication defect.

So I took today off, because I'm beyond exhausted. My tongue is mad sore, I have a killer headache, and I feel woozie as a tightrope walker. But I really can't remember the actual seizure at all.

o_o;; So how was your day, kids?

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 05:20:55 GMT

I don't think I'm gonna do LJ half as much anymore. Because I mean. I guess it's pretty pointless. And overly dramatic sometimes.

Stevie was in The Bury for a week, and it was so much fun. I love Stevie. He did a lot of crazy stuff. As always. He makes me laugh so much. I went to see "Ragtime" at Towson with him, Alyssa and Dr. Mull. It was so perf. I mean I really loved it.

Six Flags with The Nerds was bangin. I love my friends. Shawn is a good roller coaster buddy. Matthew listened to my stories and talked about the land of "hup" with me. Hup. I was really scared when Toph basically killed Bugs Bunny. Poor thing. And I thought Shaina was dead after the first roller coaster. Zane and I can now do some really sweet dance moves. Jamie and I had a really exciting bathroom experience. And Kelsey had a really funny shpeel about Dave Matthews Band on the way home. I know some great kids.

"Beauty and the Beast" in NYC was awesome. I met Lumiere and he is beautiful. You know. The candle guy. How friggin cool. NYC is just awesome. I mean I love it there. And the people and the life. This guy handing out theatre flyers talked to me for like 10 seconds and then shouted on and on about how he loved me, and he hugged and kissed me a lot before he let me go. haha. Theatre people. And the city. So awesome.

Work is totally boring. The people I work with are cool, it's mainly Liam and these other two guys, Mark and Sean. We're actually The Fantastic Four. And we try to pass the time with stupid jokes. I fold lots of clothes, basically working in retail. The guys work with books. I mean it's a job, right? It's just a long job. And they've gotten so used to my 'dialect' that they call me "Shurvurn". haha.

So, take care you guys. And Fishy. Your comment was hyster. I am so excited that you wrote on your HP book for me.

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 04:04:48 GMT

I am so tired because of work plus social engagements and traveling and whatnot. I love everyone though. I'll come back to life soon, I promise.

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 21:10:13 GMT

Feeling better. Sorry about the mopey post. I have had a good number of days though.

First of all, the job thing is pretty cool. At the University Bookstore I am basically retail girl. Folding clothes, arranging clothes, pricing stuff, etc. It's pretty cool. I very rarely work with books at all. And I've gotten to see quite a few camp people this way. It's so awesome. Kids who I barely spoke to are like "oh my god it's Siobhan!!" and it makes me feel really good. The people I work with are fun, they laugh at my jokes. I laugh at theirs. It's pretty good. It's just getting up at 6:30 in the morning and then working until 4:00 that sucks =( But well. It could be worse.

Ian came and went, he stayed for almost a week. He went through various forms of torture, such as watching "Hedwig", having to sit down at the table with my family and talk to them a whole lot, walking around the mall with my aunt and I, renting "Rocky Horror" and "Hair", going to see "The Fantastic Four", hanging out with me and 'the boys'--AJ, Sid, and Steve, along with various other college characters, looking at puppies at the humane society, swimming with the nerds, eating pizza with the nerds, playing frisbee with the nerds, going to the little bakery place in the bury, walking around the city park in the bury, going to ocean city and walking on the boardwalk as well as along the water, picture taking and well. Yeah. We had a fun time.

Monday night I spent with the nerds. We watched the chronicles of riddick. I mean. It was ridic. You know? haha. We made a lot of funny comments throughout the time, such as "dust my dick." oh my god. Shaina kicked us out of her house eventually, so the boys and I went to a beautiful place called McDonald's to make some memories. hah.

Toph: Do you like corn on the carb?
Zane: It's kind of like dusting my dick.
Vee: Wait...are we talking about sex right now?

Good times.

Alright you guys. I am headed to NYC tomorrow. It is going to be the hottest thing. Art club is going to see Beauty and the Beast. I'm so excited. And we're staying for three days. Tours of dance schools, art museums, makeovers, broadway shows, wow. It's going to be perf.

See you when I get home.

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 21:05:16 GMT

So I guess people know about it, but my dog Sonya died on thursday night. It was really sudden that she had to be put down. And it was really sad. I had to say goodbye to Megan kinda early because we had to go get Shane from camp and everything. Ian was there, so it hadn't really sunken in that she's gone because I was so busy. I feel kinda crappy because I miss Sonya. =(

Not only that, but I realized today that I am a shitty friend. I was at work (yes I have a job--SU Bookstore) and it just dawned on me that I really suck. I fail to keep in touch with

Abby
Astrid
JOE
Matt
Bruce
Jesse
Saga
Kevin
Maura
Molly
Chase
Spencer
Kate

and if you do call me, I fail to return the calls to

Megan
Sid
AJ
Adam
Abby
Justin
PunkyJoe

and I mean. This is ridiculous. What have I been thinking all this time that has kept me from you people? I'm sorry. I should get an award for being the World's Worst Friend.

Cause I'm gonna lose you
And if I'm gonna lose you
I'll lose you now for good.

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 04:02:52 GMT

Happy fourth of July.

Today, I did lots of laundry and discussed capitalism in Batman with Liam. I lurve my brother. Then I went off to lay on the rooftop with Steve, Sid, and AJ. The Boys are always fun. I went to a parental party afterwards...which was special. Most of the people who were there had been to the musical theatre show, so as soon as they saw me, they shouted "LOOK!! THERE'S OUR LESBIAN!!!"
"COME ON, SING IT, SIOBHAN!!"
"LESBIAN LOOOOOOVE!!!"
And then they'd turn to someone next to them, saying things like "You should have seen the way she was dancing!!" or "Her shoes were SOO TALL!!"

I just smiled and nodded. A lot.

Yesterday I went to visit MSCA checkin. I felt very nostalgic there. I mean, really I did. I miss everyone. I wanted to be there with everyone. I did get to see Megan and Amanda...my girls. Oh man. We were just so funny too. The three of us barged onto the guys' floor, giggling and talking at 314938741 speed. Norman, Spencer and Bryant were all like "WHOOOAA heyyyy this is GUYS ONLY." And we just kind of stopped to look at them, and then kept right on talking. And we did the same thing in Cara's room.

Amanda: Cara, let's take a bunch of pictures!! *pose pose pose*
Cara: Alright guys, I have to work now.
Megan: But Cara!! Look at my pictures. *shoves photo albums in Cara's hands*
Cara: GUYS! I have to work.
Me: Can we take one more picture?
Cara: ummm...
Megan: ooooh I'll take it!
Amanda: Really, I want to be a counselor next year, you know, because I just--
Cara: Girls. I love you all. But please get out of my room.

It was so fun, but then I had to leave because of the rents. =( I didn't get to see Stevie. DAMMIT.

So then I went to party with the nerds. It was. So much fun. Swam around in Zane's pool after photographing him cleaning Shaina's car. Everyone gathered at random times, it was so fun just laying out and being with my nerds. Toph wouldn't stay, but eventually, Kelsey, Shawn, Matt, Zane, Shaina and me all went out to the Chinatown Buffet for Shaina's bday dinner. Which was good, because I was really hungry. I mean I nearly flipped out because I really wanted an eggroll. So I ate four. Along with a lot of other food. Everyone was like
"...Siobhan I've never seen you eat so much in your life."
And well. I was hungry.

Then we wandered wal-mart, lost Zane. I put tissues in my shoes because they hurt, and I was talking on the phone while following a parade of lost/confused Nerds in search of a mysterious and notorious spidermonkey called Zane.

We found him later on Shaina's car with a bag of candy corn. I flipped out on him for making us worry. And that was that. Then we all went to Kelsey's to lay around for awhile. Good stuff.

On Friday I got to see Ian's orchestra play. It was a long show, but they did a good job. I met some of his orch camp friends. It was nice. I was soo tired. So was he. But I'm glad I got to go see him. I think he's coming over tomorrow...? hmm.

And the last bit of news: In the past week, both Spain and Canada have legalized Gay Marriage.

Come on, USA. We can do this.

Dance Recital Pics

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 01:32:58 GMT

Okay so these are slightly disappointing :( You don't get to see our cool dance shoes, and really our costumes you don't even get to see. I don't have any pics of the tap costume. :( But well here is what we do happen to have.

Half in costume.

We don't know how to behave.

Lori gets ready.

She and I pose, someone takes a not-so-good picture.

Abby kisses my camera.

I don't think they can handle this.

Linda and I are gonna ballet it up. Holler. Not too many pics, but we had fun.

Ah. Beautiful.

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 14:54:18 GMT

This is especially for any girl who is going to msca.

Okay so I'm working with little kids at Salisbury Middle, lalala, lots of work. One little girl has gone to the bathroom for so long that I decide to go search for her. After looking through three bathrooms, I was sure this girl was a magical creature that I would never find again. But as I turned to face the double doors, I saw a creature whose magical powers go beyond any others.

Light shone through the doors, and at first I thought, did mine eyes deceive me? But no. They did not. For there, in all of his beautiful glory, stood Gregg Pica, barefoot and grinning.

So we hugged and talked and talked and he is going to be at summer center. So. Holler. I'm serious girls, this boy is a dream. He's a glittery star-studded, guitar playing, liberal-minded, thought-provoking, brilliantly gorgeous intellect of a performing artist and acting genius. So be very joyous. There will be at least one pretty boy.

holler.

Anyway the class is going well. I saw "Bewitched" with Sid and we had fun. We played with his two year old nephew who wore my bracelets and purse, and we looked through the photography displays. I hung out with Steve, we watched "High Fidelity" and then went to Cara's for her party/gathering, hung out with Jackie the hot dance teacher, Adam and co. Went to Denny's with Alyssa. Slept a lot. Oh, and awhile ago I got the new Coldplay cd. It's good. I don't care what people say.

Okay I have to get ready to go teach =D

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 02:12:00 GMT

So last week: I got together with Bruce and Jem (who showed up to my house wearing my pants. And he looked a lot better in them than I do.) The three of us caused some commotion, including Bruce dancing around my street. That boy is so much fun. Went to Punky Joe's house the next day, and then back out with Jem to Katie's grad party. Slept over at Jem's, watched "Kinsey" which was really good, had some girl talks, and went home the next day, got up with Megs, went out with her. We board-walked it with her cute friend Sydney, and harrassed Amanda when Cat wasn't able to hang out. We snuck over to some random guy's house and the three of us spent the night in his room with lots of whipped cream/cool whip. I wish I was kidding. But I'm not. And I will admit that was a little weird. We went to the beach the next day and I got BAKED. I mean I feel like my brother took me to work with him and put me in with all the fried chicken. Because I am fried. It hurt so bad I couldn't sleep for two nights :( We went on the haunted house and did lots of stuff like old times, it was fun. Went to see the Community Players' show, that was fun. And finally hung out with The College Kids, Zach, Dan and Megan M + Alyssa. Before they left I made everyone take pictures on my porch. "I feel like I'm at my grandmother's house." Dan said, but he had no problem posing. haha I love those kids.

There is my update. Tomorrow, I start up as a counselor at the Acting camp at Salisbury Middle. Big Pretty (Matt) stopped me at the show and said "Siobhan!! Please come on monday. I've been meaning to call you, we really need you over there."

I beamed at him. I mean how many times does someone tell you they need you? So that is what I am up to. Exciting, yes? Yes. Right now I'm actually reading "Catcher in the Rye" which is pretty good. I've heard a lot of good things about it. I saw "Batman Begins" which was a really good movie. Amen.

And now, just a fun bit of info. Everybody knows that Sesame Street has gone a little crazy, right? Like Cookie Monster eating veggies and stuff. Well, there is also a puppet named Kami who is HIV positive. Yeah. She WAS in the USA but we banned her. Because. You know. No one in America has AIDS. So she's mainly in Africa and basically anywhere else. Her name (I recognized at first to be Japanese, right?) is actually a name from the African language Tswana, which means acceptance. Here's a picture of her. She's a five year old puppet. The women is the one who created her and wanted to bring out AIDS Awareness and stuff. Interesting? I thought so.

Aww.

And I dance dance dance and I dance dance dance

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 00:48:21 GMT

Okay, happy post time.

Friday was the recital #1. I went shopping with my mom for a little while, and we went to panera for the first time too. It was fun. I got home, did some stretches and jazz, and then drove out to the recital. Lots of makeup. Lots of glitter. And hair styling. Etc. Everything went well except for the dance to Vertigo. We kinda...had no idea suddenly. I remember going over it in my head beforehand, but then when we were there? Yeah it left me. So I made stuff up. So did Noelle apparently, and Linda. Yay. But all other dances went well. Ballet was my fav. Holler.

Took Abby out with me after the show, (which my parents came to!! I was shocked) and we went to Sid and AJ's birthday bash. Saw Mike Wu, out Hot Asian Cuisine. I mean I love that boy. Steve, Adam, Cara, Sid and AJ, Francie, Jackie, Doug, Tyler and Myles too!! That was so perf to see them. We hung out until about 3:30 AM when my parents called and I got busted for being out mad late with a Cinderella liscense. So I dropped off The Steve, and Abby and I watched Romeo and Juliet until we fell asleep.

We didn't get up til mad late, and I had to drop her at the auditorium mad fast because she was working with the little girls. I gathered myself and drove to Megan's Grad Party, which I was like an hour late to. It was fun though, saw all the beautiful girls on our side of the hall from camp-- Laura and Bridget and Kat, and Sarah and of course Megs. Seth was there. And Josie and Craigan. Talked to the girls for awhile. And then Megan is like "Ew everyone look at Siobhan. She's a vegetarian."

Which Joe then got ALL ON MY CASE about. But it was whatev. I had fun. We went out to play on the trampoline, and poor Craiggers fell down the ladder thing, and I felt bad for him. So we jumped around for awhile and then just lay there to hang out/talk. Apparently we looked suicidal. Which I find SO HYSTER. And I got my dance tights all black. That is horb. But yeah it was cool seeing the boys again.

I left and talked to Chad a little before, who is definately a charmer: "You have a dance recital? AH You know when I looked at you, I figured you were a dancer, you just have that attitude, you know? That flare..." hahah...so cute.

Drove back past the pop-pop's peaches. Thought of Bruce. Who wins for VMail award because his was just the best. Arrived at Recital #2. Took more pictures of the girls, got all dressed up and made up again. It was fun. Every dance went well that night. I made Lori go over Vertigo with me like 3 times. After the show, Abby and I went to Lighthouse with Steve, and I arrived at home on time without grillation from the fam. All in all, my last dance recital was perf and it was a good weekend.

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 17:08:11 GMT

okay okay here is the political post.

I mean honestly? I was just clicking through peoples' stuff today and somehow I ended up on Kevin from Baltimore's journal, and I was like lalala, and then I noticed the 'liberal douche' post and I was still like lalala, and then I see that my name is there, and everything in my 'lj' pisses him off.

And I'm thinking...okay. Kevin, I don't know if you are gonna be reading this or not, but I don't even know you. I've met you like twice. I'm sure you have better things to do than read my LJ that you hate so much anyway.

Look, I don't think that other people don't have a right to be opinionated. My thoughts on Bush/Conservatism?

I think a lot of Conservatives can be just plain mean because they are homophobic bigots and they're afraid to admit it. I think that they hide behind a 'sanctity of marriage' platform when they really just hate people who are different from them. I also find a lot of conservatism to be very degrading to women, which again goes to the abortion thing. I just feel like we should put women before zygotes. I feel like we're in a war, killing innocent people, including our own, so we can have, I don't know, more oil to put in our SUVs.

But I mean whatever. It doesn't even matter. My friend Shawn here is crazy conservative and he's one of my close friends. It's not like I refuse to talk to people or to try to understand other people. The point I was making was that System is blatantly liberal and it doesn't make sense to me how one can listen to them if they don't agree with those views.

Anyway this shit is bananas. I'm not trying to fight with people. I'm sorry if what I write pisses people off. But I'm not sorry for being a 'liberal douche bag' who thinks that everyone (omg even gay people) deserves equal rights.

And um I don't hate God. Good lord.

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 05:31:28 GMT

I haven't written in awhile, been busy, actually.

I mean I don't even know where to start. Kelsey's grad party was mad fun. Sexy cycles. And watching people play pool. And his grandparents' piano. And stuff. Aww I heart The Nerds to the ends of the earth.

So Ian came to see me over the weekend, it was perf. I dragged him to a whole mess of social engagements. I made him walk my dogs with me all over my neighborhood, I put him through photo-album torture, and scrap-book torture, and made him watch my lesbian song from SU, and then we went to the GSA party in Tyaskin. Long drive. I didn't realize how long I'd be driving. We had fun there, talking with the cuties. Ren gave him her pink hat, which I think he was really excited about. haha. We were supposed to pick up Zane at Wor-Wic, but it took so long driving back from Tyaskin that he had already left. We wandered around campus for a little while, even layed in the grass, and then decided to go to the rock show at Knights of Columbus.

Fun times there. I introduced Ian to about 12327128590834 people that he'll probably "never see again" but well he just might, so. I don't know. I saw a bunch of my fav little rockers there, Sarah, Jake, Eric, PETER who god, everyone just loves, and then there were the kids in the bands, Troy and company, two performers that Ian hugged and wouldn't let go of, Shaina was the one hosting the show, and it was perf, Zane and Shawn came, and we danced the night away. Pretty much. Scott from WiHi came, that was pretty crazy too. There were no flyers for this show, so considering, there was a good amount of people. Although I do wish that there had been a lot more. All of my babies from WiHi weren't there :( But well we had fun. Hearts <3

So then Ian and I went out with Shawn and Zane to Arby's. We drove around for awhile, without any destination...where I had to beg the boys from screaming out the windows. "What's your favorite kind of pie????"
"You guys!!!" I said, "This is the car with the Feminist stickers!! Now everyone's gonna think the Fem is a bitch."
"Oh, they won't care." Shawn had said...

So we finally stopped at Arby's where the boys caused quite a commotion. I mean they really did. It was pretty funny though. They seemed to get along well. Talking about fry containers and Asians and grape tomatoes and vid cams and well...it was quite special.

So we took Shawn and Zane home, and then I made Ian watch "Romeo and Juliet". Also at some point in his stay I made him watch "SLC PUNK" and "Amelie" which was really fun. We did a bunch of things, like bug Bryant to the max, really late at night. We just banged on his door and then totally invaded and ate his food and talked to his GF on the phone, molested his cat, you know. Basically what normally goes on. We went on the swings at the playground close to where I live. We hung out on my balcony. Listened to music. And it was fun stuff.

So he left, and I have a dance recital tomorrow and saturday. Yeeeesh. But pics came back and they are so super cute!!! I want to post them eventually. I lurve my girls.

"Cause I'm gonna lose you..."

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 22:02:52 GMT

Today I had a job interview at the SU Bookstore, (which went well!) and then I went to visit with Gregorio and Jenna. It was really great seeing them. We're all gonna get together sometime soon again. And I did Greg's hair emo style to the max. It was hot. haha. We played on Jenna's japanese video game DS things and we sang songs like "Greg is the ultimate sex machine" and it would mix it and stuff and...it was fun. When Jenna left Greg and I did some talking and some hanging out until we literally fell asleep. I heart Greg. It was fun.

I've been posting a lot lately...

Anyway, people have been asking for it, so here it is, a little teaser of what it was like at WiHi Prom...when Siobhan is your date and she makes you wear ridiculous clothes.

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 07:03:28 GMT

Nice day today. Went to the boardwalk with Sid and AJ. We took the transit in, created beautiful chaos in oc. It was really nice, actually. And I saw The Norman from camp!!! Who is (hopefully, he says) attending Towson next year. Hotness. On the bus, AJ and I sang new System really loud, and this one random kid joined in, and we really liked him, until he said he liked Bush.

And I was thinking...you listen to System but you like Bush? I mean it doesn't make sense.

"He probably just wanted to sound opinionated." Sid said, "I mean he probably thought, 'whoa, she has red hair!! I have to say something cool!!'"

PSH. So we had a really fun time. And later, I got a call from Adam. Him and The College Kids were going out to Denny's and they invited me =D So we put on Madagascar masks. And Mike snorted sugar.

Mike: I haven't done that in like a year.
Vee: You mean that time in the pizza place?
Mike: Yeah.
Vee: Wow, so you only do that when you're with me!!
Adam: Yeah, you just make us want to snort sugar.
Mike: It's true. I only snort sugar when I'm with you.
Vee: Aww, Mike. No one's ever said that to me before. How sweet...?

What fun. And now I'm home. Almost finished my book of the week: "The Spiral Dance" by Wiccan Peaceactivist Ecofeminist, STARHAWK. She's very cool. Tomorrow I have a job interview ^_____^

And Maura!!! I'm sorry love!! I miss you and I will call you soon!! Love you always. <3 <3 <3

So the "RENT" movie will be coming out this fall. I am excited, sort of, but here is my statement:

If "RENT" becomes another hip-hop fun movie like "Phantom", so be it. "RENT" deserves all the attention and fame in the world. But...I would not advise super conservatives to go and see it, as it involves gay people and aids and other groups that some people get so uncomfortable and worked up about. And I would just like to say that "RENT" is my favorite musical of all time, and I have seen it twice, and I fear that most people just won't understand it because it's so out there. Hopefully it will open minds and help change the world. Regardless, I love it and I'll have always loved it before it becomes 'popular' in a way that "Phantom" has.

So anyway...everyone come to Shaina's grad party/rock show at The Knights of Columbus on Saturday!! This will be the first one I have gone to in like 500 forevers, due to my extreme business. It's madness what the theatre does to you. Anyway I think it's okay considering I have gone for 5 years to these shows. But we're gonna have a rollicking good time. So, please come.

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 18:39:20 GMT

I got life, mother.
I got laughs, sister.
I got freedom, brother.
I got good times, man.
I got crazy ways, daughter.
I got million-dollar charm, cousin.
I got headaches and toothaches
And bad times too like you.
--HAIR

I don't know guys. I've just been feeling really, really inspired by this Musical. God I'm such a loser. But I mean it. It's amazing.

Somewhere, inside something, there is a rush of greatness.
Who knows what stands in front of our lives;
I fashion my future on films in space.
Silence tells me secretly everything, everything.

Freshman Year

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 08:00:40 GMT

Okay. Here are all the good times of 9th grade

9th Grade ** Freshman Year**

--Meeting Derek, the Gay Goth Guy. I brought him "My Little Ponies" once and he carried them around all day and got the weirdest looks.

--Shaina in english class.

--Shaina saying "I would if I could, but I can't, so I won't."

--Having my first boyfriend, Bruce, who was also my first kiss. We are now very, very close.

--Calling Matt Adkins "Senor Cortarse" in Spanish class.

--Sam Bilski being entertaining in Spanish class. We talked all the time and never ever payed attention in class.

--His lines, Ian's lines, and Kyle's lines in Shakespeare. "Yes, my noble lord." and "Dear Sir!! Forebear!!"

--Went out with Doug, the football player, hehe, in a relationship that would last a year and three months.

--Performing "King Lear" by Shakespeare.

--Winning an award for my role as Cordelia in The National Shakespeare Festival.

--Stupid rehearsal names. "El Duche" and "The Duke of Rehobeth"

--Shaina and I stalking Mike Poe.

--Long, deep conversations at the "King Lear" cast party.

--Chris Scott dressing up as 'school patrol' and saluting kids around "The Giving Tree" at lunch.

--Chris Scott also playing the bongos on his stomach: "The Duke of Rehobeth. Is Doug. No one wants a hug. From Doug. Son of a bitch. In my way. I want to kill him. Every day."

--Jenna's 9th grade graduation party.

--Dancing in the street at Juicebox shows.

--Saga: WHOA he is hot!! Does he have a brother?

Me: His brother is in his 30's...

Saga: Does he have a SISTER??

--Crazy times at Salisbury Zoo Training:

**Ryan: If Siobhan were a jaguar, and she saw a man in fishnets, she would eat him right up. Siobhan: Yummilicious.

**Bunni: Can we put nicknames on our nametags?

Zoo lady: Um, no. And what is your nickname?

Bunni: Oh, I don't have one--I just wanted to know. ^_^

**Tommy: And all the bears were dead, AGAIN!!

**Alen: Um...Mana..MIGHT look good if he had snake skin on instead of fishnets...if he had a snakeskin outfit. Oh, wait, that would actually look pretty cool.

**Laura: You're not supposed to think a bird is sexy!! IT'S A BIRD!!! IT CAN'T BE SEXY!!!

**Adam: The bears can fly. They are magical.

**Ryan: And what happened when the rainforest was destroyed? Forest People!!

**Alen and Vee: The blue heron is so damn sexy.

**Ben: Hey...if we don't like what the kids are doing, do we have permission to beat them with a stick?

--Trang's sleepover in VA. Meeting Josh, having crazy prank phone calls

. --ARTS CAMP!!! Hot times:

**Meeting the beautiful BART who I am going to college with (and megan too hehe)

**Doing Hamlet '30 fricken times'

**Cracking up with Jonathon about 'porn' and 'korn'

**All the inside jokes with Jem, my roommate

**Bryant: Oh, Siobhan and Jem...they were the weird ones. No wait. There were 130 of them. **Meeting Tom and JAMES my first moments with the 'Baltimore Boys'

--Running around OTAKON with Alen. Seeing Tom, James, Mike, and Brenden there. That was hot

. --Meeting Yuri, from Japan. My nextdoor neighbor for a little while.

--The Charter of the Forest with Alen --Pokemon with Derek --Living with Dave the Guitar Teacher, and calling him "Uncle Dave" from then on

--Adam poking himself with pineneedles

--Falling in love with RASPUTINA, my favorite band still <3

Ninth grade clearly had some really good times.